15 yrs....

*This entry was supposed to be posted yesterday. I could only post it today due to unforeseen circumstances*

Hari ini, 12 November 2010.

Hari ini 15 tahun Baba meninggalkan dunia ini. X pernah sehari pun saya melupakan Baba. Dan x pernah sehari pun saya x merindui Baba. Especially bila saya dilanda masalah. Hati saya bagaikan di carik carik mengenangkan Baba yang sudah tiada.

Sekarang saya hanya mampu menangis setiap kali kerinduan dan ingatan semakin kuat, disamping itu mendoakan dan menyedekahkan Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Baba. Rindunya saya hanya Allah yang tahu.

Tapi saya harungi hidup seperti biasa. Kuatkan hati untuk menghadapi apa jua cabaran dan masalah yang datang. Saya buat semua ini untuk keluarga. Kalau saya jadi frail & weak apa pun x akan jadi. Dan saya tahu Baba x mahu anak dia jadi frail & weak. So untuk itu saya kuatkan semangat. All for my family.

Wish You Were Here....

Fifteen years have passed
I’ll never forget the day
Someone rang to tell me
That you’d gone away

The hurt is the same
Like an open wound
There are days
I don’t utter a sound

Some days the pain is stronger
It makes me sick and weak
I can’t stand this much longer
I just sit here and weep

I’ve shut my private door
And let no one in
Locking myself in a box
They try, but I won’t give in

You were like a rock
Strong, faithful and true
What worth has my life
Now I don’t have you

I was your first born
Daddy’s little girl
I took my own path
But was still part of your world

I was not the best
Guilty of neglect
But you know daddy dearest
I had so much respect

I always loved you
My dad, my star
Now my pain is
To worship you from afar

I love you now
As I did back then
I just hope... one day
I will see you again

I am so proud of you
Brave and strong to the end
Now when asked “how are you?”
There is no need to pretend

We all love and miss you so much, sleep well
and take care of all who went before you

Forever in my heart...

Al Fatihah buat Arwah Baba...Azni bin Abdul Hamid....

Keluhan Sesuka Hati Part 2

Lately kan, saya rasa teramatlah penat. Kalau kamu di tempat saya pun kamu akan rasa penat. Cubalah kamu bayangkan (bagi orang2 Kota Kinabalu mesti tau punya..yang bukan orang KK buat2 tau sudeeehhhh):

Awal pagi buta jam 6 hantar adik pi sekolah then another adik & his wife to work (Putatan - SMK Tmn Tun Fuad, Luyang - Lintas)..mengahrung segala traffic lagi bikin tensen kepala hotak...then terus ke tempat resort (Kinarut - Papar so called highway). Then balik terus ke Lintas ambik adik & sis in law from work, lepas tu baruuuu lah balik rumah. By the time sampai rumah sudah hampir jam 7 pm.

X kau karau 6 days a week begini saja rutinnya? Ok lah, make it 5 1/2 days lah sebab Saturday half day kan...tapiiiii tetap juga route dia sama. Putatan - Luyang - Lintas - Kinarut/Papar - Lintas - Putatan jalan teruuusssssss!

Apa mo buat..have to sacrifice tenaga and what not untuk sesuap or bersuap suap nasi. Susah atau x kena face the music juga. Lain cerita kalau born rich with a golden spoon with diamonds kan. X payah kerja, tidur baring terkangkang depan tv pun x apa. Duit tetap ada.

Sooo...kesimpulannya haruslah exercise untuk menambahkan tenaga.

Apa ni tetiba bab exercise pun masuk..tsk tsk tsk...

Aah..lantaklah! Janji update.

Itu saja.

See ya!

Keluhan Sesuka Hati...

Kerja susah...x kerja susah...

Oh well..kklu la dengan x bekerja tu pun blh dapat duit kan...
Gerenti saya akan terperap di rumah...tgk tv, online FB/Twitter dan yang sewaktu dengannya..
Sambil menggemukkan badan yang memang sudah gemuk (menternak lemak)
Bangun pun x payah kelam kabut. Sukati la pukul berapa kan...ada aku kesah?

And cuba bayangkan...
Bukan kah best kalau everytime kita bangun pagi...tiba2 macam eh, ada duit satu stack dibawah bantal..
Then satu stack tu mesti duit RM100.00 berkeping2...
Fuh..kayo makcik!
Shopping everyday...breakfast at rome, lunch at paris & dinner at Spain...gitu!
Tidur? Pilih saja hotel yg best...asalkan 5 bintang (eksen...banyak duit kan)

Kamu rasa, pandai bosan kah tidak kalau hidup kaya raya & asyik shopping memanjang?

Saya rasa tidak..tapi manalah saya tau sebab saya blm pernah lagi hidup kaya raya & asyik shopping memanjang.

Haish...redha sajalah dengan keadaan sekarang. Jangan sampai jahanam kehidupan, cukuplah.


Yang belum pernah merasa hidup kaya raya & asyik shopping memanjang,

Tuan Punya Blog.

Thank GOD for HP & wifi...otherwise I'll just dieeeee!!!!!

Working without computer sucks!

Sudahnya saya asyik online pakai hp. Bateri hp pn ala2 hidup segan mati x mau.

Kononnya cpu di panah petir & sedang di repair. X tau la bila siapnya. For the time being saya macam org separuh waras sebab all my work relies on a komputer. Without one, I can't do much. Ada la call sikit2 follow up lebih kurang..afterwhich terkulat2 merenung hp...online FB & twitter. Tapi syukur la blh online pakai hp ni..klu x memang sah saya bakal terencat disini!

Skrg tunggu masa utk appointment dgn client. Discuss pasal upcoming events which will be held very soon. Wish me luck!

Bersiaran di port baru...

Another transition...again!
Hope this one will last longer.

Siaran langsung dari BPHBR...my tempurung for Godknowshowlong....

This Is Me - Terrified!

Sudah lama x buat entry lagu kesukaan...

So ini kali kasi update satu lagu...

Kath Mc Phee did 'okay' singing this song...personally I think Kara Dioguardi sang better than her.

Anyway...jom melalak bersama sama

Terrified - Kath Mc Phee (lyrics by Kara Dioguardi)

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world
Full of wrong
You're the thing thats right
Finally made it
Through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrifed
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life

This could be good
Its already better than that
And nothings worse
Than knowing your holding back
I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star

Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life

I only said it 'cause I mean it
Oh I only mean it
'Couse its true
So dont you tear
What I've been dreaming
'Couse it keeps me up
And holds me close
Whenever Im without you

You set it again
My hearts in motions
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life, life
In my only life

Oh, I Have Loads To Tell...But...

Malas. Brainfreeze. Ketandusan idea. X tau mau start mcm mana. Last2 x jadi update. Apa kes?

Ok, secara ringkas since my last update:

*25/9/2010-Birthday Teha. I baked a chocolate cake & cooked a bit. Nothing fancy, just some fried mee hoon & tid bits..celebrate pun kami2 saja.

*28/9/2010-My birthday. Nothing special pun. Makan2 pun x da so buat dek ja la. But thanks to semua yg wish :)

*1/10/2010-Birthday Ira. I baked a pudding cake, mom masak nasi ayam.

*2/10/2010-Birthday Azman. Malas mo buat kek. Like me, no celebration watsoever.

Saya ada rajin a bit hari ni. Siap mengeluarkan extra energy menyental tingkap rumah & bilik.
Owh, hari ni grandmas saya lunch d rumah. Mama masak daging taucu...enak banget! BTW, mom's gonna cook for CM 2moro...CM lunch d rumah Kak Jan. Mon's spending a nite there. And kami bawa diri ke IP.

We went for a 2 hrs karaoke session...merelease tension. Then smpi IP terus membedal telur dadar for supper. Mcm mna x buntal bgini..sigh~

Ok saya suda mengantuk. Time to sleep. Jumpa lagi di update akan datang.